Ever heard the song Holding Out For A Hero? Of course you have, who hasn't? I found a different version by a new girl... its gentler than the original, all week I've played it over and over until I fall asleep....but I don't think I believe in heroes anymore. They don't exist or at least not for me....and strangely I'm okay with that.
Funny, right? Never thought I'd say I'm okay with being alone but I am. I've just seen too many relationships and marriages in ruins. Too many awful things for me to believe anymore. I've seen too many abusive relationships, too many marriages where people don't love each other anymore...I've watched too many kids lives be messed up because of their parents awful marriage. This world is falling apart and I'm done with it.
I don't believe.
There are no heroes, people aren't good. They're evil. Selfish. Hateful. Spiteful. Liars. Manipulative.
I'm done holding out for a hero... he doesn't exist.
Please, don't tell me Jesus loves me. I know this... but it isn't comforting anymore. It just isn't, not when you've seen everything I have... it just doesn't help anymore.
:( Chica you have finally done it. You're at the bottom. I am sorry that you have gone though and have had to deal with and witness so much. I know that you don't find comfort in Jesus but know that one of His children loves you prays for you and your family every night and is here for you. (PS. I can't help it if He is the one I am takin the love from and passin it on.) I am not going to say that you will find a "hero" well because no guy will truly fit that discription. But somewhere better guys are out there and they try their hardest to do the best they can. Hon, hold out for that guy.
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