Reason One to Smile

Yesterday night I met with a good friend and God used her to really work inside of me. The Lord knows I still hurt and he was able to use her to allow me to see some good that he's placed inside my life and to accept that...that good was meant for me. We're working on changing my outlook on life and appreciating that the Lord believes I'm worth it. Its freeing... It makes me smile. Last night I was honestly emotionally worn out and I went straight to bed but I'm awake now! haha its 4:38am.

So I'm awake and I decided that I was going to pray....and once I was done I remembered what she said about keeping a prayer journal and looking back on it to see what prayers were answered and what prayers were answered in different ways or not at all...So instead of keeping a prayer journal I've decided to take sticky notes and write down my prayer, give it all to the Lord, fold it up nicely and place it in my prayer box. Its just a pretty box Julie gave me for my birthday. Its painted with pretty white flowers on a black box that says "Live" "Laugh" "Love"
I love the box and as I wrote out my prayer and placed it inside I found one prayer I wrote 4 months ago and as I reread it I was shocked to see that the Lord gave me a second chance like I had asked and it just made me smile because even though I didn't think I deserved it He thought I deserved it and that means so much to me and from now on I'm going to accept the blessings he gives me and appropriate what he hands to me because to do anything else, to think any other thought would be a disrespect and I love my Lord with all I have. I'm so grateful to him.

Here's a song that was playing this morning as I was writing. I love this song so much and one part of the song really hits me as Josh Wilson sings "Maybe, there are things you can't see and all those things are happening to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see" Those lyrics are so true. There are things I can't see, and those things that God can see, well he's using them and I'm going to trust that He knows best...because he is my savior. ;) I'm grateful to him for doing all he's done for me. I'm going to learn to accept that now and remember I'm worth what he does for me otherwise he wouldn't do it. I know my God doesn't waste his time ;)