Another Grandma Moment

Last night Grandma heard me from the living room crying in my room. She walked slowly upstairs while saying "Are you crying?" I couldn't respond because I was too caught up in the moment of being disappointed yet again.

I've noticed it's really hard being a Christian in this world. I don't mean Christian as being someone who believed Jesus died on the cross, I mean Christian as being someone who strives every day to know God more and do his will. It's really hard. It's even harder to find someone else who believes as you do. So maybe that's why all my relationships always come to a sudden stop, leaving me discouraged and disappointed once again.

Grandma walked into my room and said "What's wrong?" I choked out "Can you get me the kleenex?" She walked over to the wall, grabbed the box of kleenex and handed it to me. As I wiped my tears she just stood there until I was able to speak. She asked me again what happened and I told her... I said "because I don't believe in sex before marriage another boy decided I wasn't worth it anymore..." She just looked at me and said "Don't you worry... You are beautiful and have a lot to offer.." Then she walked out of my room to let me be alone for awhile.


The rest of the night I thought about what she said and my standards that I have... I thought I could lower my standards... I might have a better shot at keep a relationship going...I considered working even harder at my job so I didn't have to think about any of this, but instead I picked up my bible. I came across a verse in Isaiah 40:29-31 Its an old favorite and I go to it often. It says:

      "He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."  

So I decided this was a disappointment but it wasn't a setback. If anything it taught me to stand firm in my beliefs, in the Word and in God. He is my strength. I will not lower my standards, I will not change my beliefs and I won't give up. And you shouldn't either. I hope who ever reads this finds encouragement to be who they are...and stand firm in it. Don't let this world change what you believe because it looks easier on the other side. You just remember when you feel like giving up that You are Beautiful and have a lot to offer. :)

I've lived with my Grandma for almost a whole year now and I'm thankful I was given the opportunity.  She's taught me a lot about life, love and being okay with who I am.