No More

No More

The rain outside her window--
fell hard, hitting against the glass.
ringing in her ears.
Screaming of her faults.
Memories of the past fog the midnight sky.

Tears began to fall, heavy, painful tears
Sobbing, she tried to stop
Praying she begged for peace

Each memory of the past
shot through her mind like--
a shooting star. Searing through--
her heavy heart with pain.

Her mistakes were so vivid
So clear, wishing she could go back--
to change the past. She began to cry harder.

Alone in the dark
She reached for the knife
"It only takes one swift moment--
to end this life" She thought.

Nobody would notice if she were gone.
Nobody would care.

At that moment she heard a crash.
Dropping the knife, she began to shake.
Somebody was here or was it just the wind
She called out "Hello? Is anyone there?"
But she heard nothing. She called out again.
"Please, is anyone here, please."

...and then she heard it.
"Precious, please don't cry."
She screamed out then--
"Why can't I see you!"
and the voice said--
"Because you don't believe--
Have faith in me."
and in a small voice she said...

"I'm scared...."

The secret voice then replied with--
"I know you are, but please have faith.
Take a deep breath, my child.
There is no need to be afraid, you are not alone.

My love will save you, you need not be afraid.
Can't you see my grace is sufficient for you.
Why do you reject me?"

Her voice was shaking, she couldn't see
but felt everything around her.
"I don't know, I...I just don't know."

She was hurting, she was scared,
Helpless and afraid ready to take her life
So she could feel no more, no more--
pain, or rejection, no more cutting words
So she could feel no more.

"Child of mine" whispered the voice
"I know you're hurting, I feel your pain.
I want to help you, I've always been here.
Please don't run from me. I'm here to heal."

"If you're here to heal, if you've always--
been here then why am I like this?"

"Because you've pushed me away.
You're strong and stubborn, child.
You are hurting and running from everyone
With good reason, but you need not fear me
I will never hurt you. Come home to me.
Let me heal your brokenness."

"That's just too easy! Too simple!
Life isn't like that! It isn't easy!"

"With me it is.
We'll take it one step at a time.
Every day you'll become stronger.
I'll hold your hand. I'll never leave.

Trust in me..."

"I want to...I want to" she cried.
"Wash those tears away my child.
Tonight you're life starts again.
You're free. Lets walk forward together".





I wrote "No More" after reading a book on the reason people cut. I've never been a cutter myself but I've had many friends who have fallen into this addiction thinking it helps to deal with the pain. I've wanted to understand it deeper so I read a couple stories on it. Cutting is so much more than what we think it is, the world thinks that people who cut are just looking for attention...but they aren't. Their hurting inside, there numb, they WANT to feel again or they need something that hurts more then the emotional pain... a distraction. So they cut! Millions have fallen to this and we just pity them or think..."Wow, she's stupid." but they aren't. They hurt, and the worse thing we could ever do is ignore them...or make fun of them. We should be like Jesus and love them! Help them. Be there for them. Push them through it and give them a new start. So I wrote this poem...I prolly don't have it to a "te" but I tried to understand some of the emotions you guys might be feeling, I'll never truly understand but I get it. So here is to you guys. Know you aren't alone out there. Seek for help. I'm only a phone call away. :)