Smile

You ever get in that mood when you look back in the past and sometimes it leaves you sad or even happy? I was rereading some of my journal entrees and I started smiling and laugh and "aw"ing because of that moment in life. That one month of happiness that crashed after the month was over...Funny thing now though is I don't regret it. Looking back now I can see why it made me so careful with love but I don't regret caring because I felt alive for that month and I was happier than I had been in awhile. It gives me hope too, it means that you can be that happy in life! ITs OUT there! You just have to wait for it and one day he's gonna come and he'll make me 10 times more happy than that "one" month that that special boy kept me smiling. Don't worry though cause I'm never gonna forget that month. How could I? Its the month that I saw the real me and also saw the real me die but then grow. Like a flower in Summer. You had me dancing and blowing in the wind then winter came and killed me but there was hope cause Jesus saved me and brought me back to life and reminded me that i was still strong. :) I miss you and every time i hear "Smile" I think of you. That was your song. :)

You make me smile like the sun
Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile