So I was thinking again today while sitting in class and this time it was on the way the teacher of my College 101 class teaches. I don't like it. Is it effective? Yes, but I don't respect her... She reminds me of everyone else in my life who acted like I was stupid, but she doesn't act like I'm the only stupid one in the class....We're all stupid. We all don't care... and today I was sitting in my seat trying my hardest not to smart talk her, I succesed but I was totally ready to high tail it out of there! When I got to get up she calls my name and says she needs to see me before I leave... My mind races.. "Ohhh! Crap, what did I do wrong???" Right that's always the first thing that pops into someone's head when they get called out... I slowly make my way up to the front.
I smile....
She smiles....
and says....
You aren't in any trouble, I just wanted to pull you aside to tell you I recommended you to the leaders to be a "Spartan Team Leader"
Now, this is honestly a really good thing. Its a big compliment.
She then went on to say that she has seen in me a person who is a leader...
My thoughts go a puzzling... and I think "Really? I've B.S.ed my way through this whole class and told you what you wanted to hear.. Yeah you have it right I can be a leader but you HATE ME?!?!?"
Didn't say these thoughts out loud.. but I thanked her and smiled because it really is a great compliment.
As I was walking out, I kind felt like someone just dropped a brick on my head because I honestly believed that my teacher, hated me and thought I was stupid. I took a walk around the campus, and thought through what happened... What I realized was, She's a tough love kind of teacher. Those kinds of teachers are needed but I hate them. That's all I've ever had my whole life and those tough love teachers have made me feel like crap. So I realized that I guess unconsciously I recognized that in her and put up my defense of "I'm not gonna let you get to me" which I didn't.
I'm not saying she's a bad teacher, she's a great teacher but I don't approve of the way she treats people. I never did approve of tough love teachers, more bad comes from that method than good. I will say I'm shocked that she really does like me, I never would have guessed. haha anyways those are my thoughts for the day.
Interesting, eh? :P
I honestly don't know if I've ever been taught with tough love like that. I would probably shut them out and put up a huge wall. You are far from stupid, good job dealing with her.
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