Today I had a long talk with a friend about why I attract so many losers in my life and she told me that I'm too friendly... I'm too nice... that I need to care less about people and only care about the ones who take time to get to know me and want to get to know the real me but honestly the more I thought about that the more I realized that I couldn't be that... because that's not who I am. I'm the girl who's gonna care about you no matter what you do to me. I'm the girl who will forgive everything you do and say to hurt me and still believe that you have good inside. I'm the girl who gives second and third and forth and fifth chances because that's what I'd want for someone else to do to me.
I may care... and put myself out there too much and get hurt but I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all. I'd rather have people remember me as the girl who always smiled than have them know me any different way.
I'd rather care and wined up alone, picking up the pieces than to just never feel anything at all. My whole life I've always viewed it in this way; Jesus is the one I'm trying to show through me... so its not me but its the people around me that matter and how they see Jesus through me. Sometimes I screw up and I'm the worse example of God's love but I try to ... I try to be there for people and care about them. I don't matter and honestly I don't mind hurting if the other person is happy... I just need to find a better way with getting back up after disappointment. Jesus has it all under control tho.
(btw this isn't just about guys... this is about everyone in my life. Friends, family, and guys. Everyone)
:) There you go.
ReplyDeleteI think you have an excellent point...but just don't forget that sometimes part of caring well for someone is putting up healthy boundaries with them. Because it's not helping them if you're allowing them to hurt you unnecessarily. But it's good to not live in fear of being hurt, too.
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