Searching

"You don’t need to search for a girl or run after a girl. That’s not how you find her. All you gotta do is aim for God and start running. Soon, you’ll notice someone else running beside you, maybe even faster than you. That’s who you’ll want to go for."

My Jesus

I was thinking today about God and what life would be like without him. I started to get sad inside because I know that life apart from him would just be meaningless and I feel horrible for the people out there who don't know of him, or don't want him in their lives.

Jesus has made such a difference in mine that I just wish I could share him with the whole world. I just pray the world can someday see his love shining through me. :)

Pray You Through

I heard this song for the very first time today... The lyrics brought me back to when I was fifteen. That year the Lord became real to me. It was hard and when I look back on it I have no desire to return but this song brought back memories of nights when nothing could make me smile, nobody knew what to do. So Allison would call me up and just pray for me and pray... because there was nothing else that could be done. So she prayed me through.  I'm so thankful for her, I'm so thankful that God placed her in my life because she helped me through those nights. I just hope that one day I can do the same for someone else. That one day, just like Allison did for me, that I can pray someone through. That I can help them feel closer to Jesus in a difficult moment like She did for me.

All This Time

Today as I was coming home, this song started to play on the radio. As I listened to the lyrics and Britt Nicole sang the lines "I remember the moment, I remember the pain. I was only a girl but I grew up that day." it stuck me that everyone you meet, everyone who smiles at you, every passing stranger has a story. They have all faced a great tragedy and have lived through it. Now I can't say how all of them chose to make it through but I know that some of my friends have had to go through some pretty rough things and as i watched them struggle, I have also watched God do amazing things through them. I've seen Him take the worse situation and bring something beautiful from it and through it all they chose t glorified him. I was just amazed as I was driving that God never fails us. He never leaves us. He's always there. Forever and ever.

He wants to rescue us.

I know that He's stolen my heart.

Thankful

You know that saying a "Thankful heart is a..." yeah I don't remember the rest but I will say that at the start of this year God has been working in my heart to change it to appreciate life for what it is and what He's given me. I'm really good at being thankful for the big things in life but when it comes to the little things and then the things I never asked for or even wanted apart of my life... yeah that's where I fail and where God wanted a little tweaking. So we got to work. I wish I could say it all went smoothly but the beginning of the year is a little blurred and maybe for good reason?!?! aha but as it was pointed out to my heart more and more where I needed to just be thankful and go with the flow I began to be... It wasn't until today though as I was driving in the car with my mom and talking about people who just seem restless and always seem to find some form of discontent with life that it hit me that I wasn't discontent anymore. I wasn't always wanting for something better to happen... I was just content. It made me so happy. It's the greatest feeling in the world. Its freeing... life is far from what I ever pictured it as and trust me its not always fun and easy, I do still have my moments of stickiness but I try to remmeber that God is in control and I need to be thankful. I can say that I don't have this gnawing feeling that I want more out of life anymore. I'm realizing I have everything I really need and that's my Jesus, my family, and friends. The Lord has given me far beyond measure. I'm grateful for everything he's done and even for the bumps in the road because with those bumps I was able to witness my Jesus show me how great He is. :)

 He knows the future and I'm content to play the background while he takes the lead.
  
"In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." 1 Thessalonians 5:18
 I'm thankful 

This Weather

Is sooo beautiful. It makes me soooo happy. It makes me smile all the time. I fall asleep with the windows open and wake up to the sun rising. :) I love it. Ohhh also for the diet I was doing... I'm switching because this diet just makes me feel hungry all the time. Not fun. I'll just not eat flour or sugar... not good for you anyways.... haha I feel like I have soo much more energy. I like it.

Day Two

I'm hungry. Oh well. I'm staying busy. I love this weather. It makes me so happy. I was able to sit outside and read in the sun for a bit until I almost fell asleep, which I doubt would have happened if I had gotton more sleep but one I had like six million bad dreams including getting married and being pressured into it and not being happy over it alll.. I seriously almost woke up screaming... I was breathing right. That's for sure. Hahah guess we all can guess what scares me. Marriage! lol Then once i fell back asleep I had another bad dream but not as bad as the first and then I had a couple other ones... it all kept switching. Weird. finally all my dreams were almost over and Willy knocked on my door very loudly at 830 to get my keys to my car. UGH! and I wanted to sleep in. Siiigh I guess 7 hours will do on a weekend?!!?! :( Anyways. Hope ya'll are having a wonderful time!!! :) Enjoy this weather while we have it! It reminds me of Hawaii. I miss that place dearly

Day One

Hi guys, :) So today is day one of my diet. My mom is doing the extreme version of it but I'm tagging along to help her stick with it and to lose weight, because lets face it it wouldn't kill me to drop a couple pounds! I'm at 158 right now which is wayyy to heavy for me. I probably don't look it with clothes on but trust me I'm overweight. This is why I'm super excited to start the program but after it's over I'm even more excited to eat healthy. Its like a fresh start. I love fresh starts. Pretty much what we do is eat less but we've also cut out dairy and flour. Soo pretty much we eat, fruit, veggies and meat. :) YUM! haha meals are very limited but its only going to be for a month. After that we'll add some other things in but it will be healthy meals, hardly any floury stuff besides I'm allergic to flour.:( I'm honestly kinda excited for the 30 days to go by. I can't wait to see how much we both lose. We're drinking lots of water which is great but goodness do I visit the bathroom a lot! hahah So for breakfast I was able to have strawberries and a cup of tea, which was plenty for me because I'm not hungry in the morning. Now for lunch which I'm eating right now is salad and chicken. :) I'm enjoying it. I've cut my food up small so that I eat slower and enjoy it. And honestly that's healthy for you. You digest it better that way! :) So I'm super excited for this summer! The weather is already beautiful out and its only MARCH! I thank God for it every day because it makes me soo happy. I'm excited for the green to grow and come alive and the flowers because that makes for prettier photoshoots. :) Anyways, I'm checking out. Stay tuned for Day Two! :)

On Love

I was emailing my sister the other day about relationships, and caring for others and also how to deal with people kindly who care for you but you don't feel the same for them and she sent me this link because she thought it would help. I loved it, it was written so beautifullly and said with so much care. It's everything I've been learning lately but placed in words that I could never say... here it is...

 Back in 1958, John Steinbeck, author of East of Eden, The Grapes of Wrath, and Of Mice and Men, got a letter from his teenage son Thom, in which Thom confessed that he had fallen desperately in love with a girl named Susan at his boarding school.

Steinbeck wrote this wise and wonderful letter back to him the same day...

New York
November 10, 1958
Dear Thom:

We had your letter this morning. I will answer it from my point of view and of course Elaine will from hers.

First -- if you are in love -- that's a good thing -- that's about the best thing that can happen to anyone. Don't let anyone make it small or light to you.

Second -- There are several kinds of love. One is a selfish, mean, grasping, egotistical thing which uses love for self-importance. This is the ugly and crippling kind. The other is an outpouring of everything good in you -- of kindness and consideration and respect -- not only the social respect of manners but the greater respect which is recognition of another person as unique and valuable. The first kind can make you sick and small and weak but the second can release in you strength, and courage and goodness and even wisdom you didn't know you had.

You say this is not puppy love. If you feel so deeply -- of course it isn't puppy love.

But I don't think you were asking me what you feel. You know better than anyone. What you wanted me to help you with is what to do about it -- and that I can tell you.

Glory in it for one thing and be very glad and grateful for it.

The object of love is the best and most beautiful. Try to live up to it.

If you love someone -- there is no possible harm in saying so -- only you must remember that some people are very shy and sometimes the saying must take that shyness into consideration.

Girls have a way of knowing or feeling what you feel, but they usually like to hear it also.

It sometimes happens that what you feel is not returned for one reason or another -- but that does not make your feeling less valuable and good.

Lastly, I know your feeling because I have it and I'm glad you have it.

We will be glad to meet Susan. She will be very welcome. But Elaine will make all such arrangements because that is her province and she will be very glad to. She knows about love too and maybe she can give you more help than I can.

And don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens -- The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.

Love,

Fa

Sex, Marriage, & Fairytales

I really like this guy. He speaks the truth.

Just a Thought

I was on facebook today and my friend had a status up. She wrote this and it just really got me thinking. …One of the most discouraging things in our life is the disillusion of what we THINK it should look like. It should be an encouragement to realize is that life is an opportunity to live for the Lord, no matter where you are or what shape you’re in. Sometimes we just have to be open to the opportunities He’s already giving us.