This morning I was walking downstairs to take a shower. When I saw my Grandma laying on the couch. She had her hand over her head and she looked so sad. I sat down on the floor next to the couch and said "Hi" She barely choked out a hello. You see she's very congested and mornings are really hard. I asked her how she was feeling and she looked me in the face and says..."I'm sick, aren't I?" I replied "Yes, but you're getting better!" she looked away and says, "I'm really old, aren't I?" I smiled and say "Yeah, you are.." then very quickly she places her hand over her mouth, laughed and said "shhh don't tell anyone!" I smiled and say "Seeee you still have your sense of humor!!" and she goes "Well, I have to! You gotta laugh to get through."
Its moments like these that I'm going to remember forever... especially this one. It had brought me back to my teen years. I remember saying the same thing... "You just gotta laugh" When its the only thing left to do, when you're just too worn out. You just gotta laugh.
Growing up I always knew my grandma was tough... I mean she's one stubborn lady. That's how I always saw her until I moved in. It wasn't easy for the first two months and its still not easy but living here has shown me all her negative and positive sides... Yeah she's difficult and doesn't want me to help but she cares so much and I see that every day from her.. I mean I walked into her house a month ago, sobbing my eyes. All because a boy treated me as if I wasn't even human. As soon as she saw my face, her eyes got real big and she goes "What happened?!?!" between sobs I managed to say "a boy broke my heart..." she goes... "oh no.... what's his name?" I looked her straight in the face and told her his name was "Asshole" as I walked away I heard her saying "Asshole? That's a terrible name!" but then she followed me into the kitchen and told me to cheer up! That I should tell that boy thank you! and I kinda just looked at her... and she goes "because he did you a favor! You don't want to be with someone like him and there will be lots of other boys out there for you!"
My grandma has a fighter's heart. Somehow, someway she'll figure out how to accomplish a mission. That's just who she is... she doesn't give up... doesn't take no for an answer and never stops loving you, even if she doesn't say it to you... her actions will always prove it to you.
In certain ways she inspires me... I wanna have a fighter's heart. I don't ever wanna give up... so next time I feel like it, I'll just think of her and you should too! :) Because there is always a way no matter how worn out and tired you are! even if that way is just laughing because its the only thing left to do. Just do it... because things will get easier...maybe not tomorrow or the next day but over time you'll realize you made it through that difficult time and you're stronger. So have a fighter's heart :)
