January 26, 2014

It Will Never Fade

I’m not going to lie I’ve had a hard time letting you go but as I sat by your side tonight, holding your hand I finally felt peace. In the last year and a half I’ve grown to love you so much…but in a different way than a granddaughter loves her Grandma. 

I remember the night I said yes to moving in with you. I cried, not because I didn’t want to take care of you but because I knew my life wouldn’t be the same anymore, and looking back now, I wouldn’t trade any of my memories I have with you for anything. I cherish them with all my hearts, words can’t even describe… 

I think that’s why It's been so hard for me to watch you go through this pain, because I was always the one to help you and when you quietly spoke to me tonight and said “Help me” it broke my heart…and all I could do was hold your hand…all I could do was be there and somehow by just holding your hand to help you through, you helped me. I can let you go now and I know now in my heart you’re memory will never fade. 

I love you,

    thank you for always being there…